我一直这样暗暗崇拜他。用英语怎么说？

我一直这样暗暗崇拜他。

I've always had this sneaking admiration for him.

ve

abbr. Venezuela 委内瑞拉；

例句
Conclusion The TCD abnormity of VE occurs mainly in intracervical artery system.
结论病毒性脑炎脑血流动力学异常改变以颈内动脉系统为主.

always

adv. 总是，老是，永远，始终，常常，不断地；

例句
Some cities are always going to be more advantaged.
一些城市总会有一些得天独厚的优势。

had

v. 有（ have的过去式和过去分词 ），（亲属关系中）接受，拿，买到；

例句
He claimed that his parents had abandoned him...
他声称父母遗弃了他。

this

pron. 这，这个，这事，这人，这时，下面所说的事；adj. 这，这个，刚过去的，即将到来的，今…，本…；adv. 这样地，就是这样，这么地；

例句
Victoria Falls has had above average levels of rainfall this year...
维多利亚瀑布今年的降雨量超过了平均水平。

sneaking

adj. 偷偷摸摸的，鬼鬼祟祟的，卑怯的，暗中的；v. 潜行( sneak的现在分词 )，偷偷溜走，（儿童向成人）打小报告，告状；

例句
I have a sneaking suspicion that they are going to succeed...
我隐约觉得他们将要成功了。

admiration

n. 钦佩，赞美，引人赞美的人或物，怀着对…的赞美；

例句
Her athleticism drew the admiration of the crowd.
她的运动才能令众人赞叹不已。

for

prep. 为，为了，倾向于，关于，当作；conj. 因为，由于；

例句
I've come looking for a bit of advice.
我特来讨教。

him

pron. (he的宾格)他；

例句
They said goodbye to him as he got aboard the train at Union Station.
当他在联合火车站登上火车之际，他们向他道别。