想起我所得到的各种暗示,我深深地痛恨自己.用英语怎么说？

想起我所得到的各种暗示,我深深地痛恨自己.

I reproached myself with the many hints I had had.

reproached

v. 责备( reproach的过去式和过去分词 )，内疚；

例句
Laura had not reproached him, never so much as mentioned it...
劳拉没责备他，甚至提都没提那件事。

myself

pron. 我自己，亲自；

例句
I married above myself — rich county people...
我高攀了一门亲事，是县里的富有人家。

with

prep. 和，跟，随着，关于，和…一致；

例句
A waiter entered with a tray...
侍者端着托盘进来了。

the

art. 指已提到的人（物），指说话人与听者已知的人（物），用于独一无二的事物前，与形容词最高级和序数词连用；

例句
He did have a real knowledge of the country...
他对该国的确知之甚多。

many

adj. 许多，多的；pron. （与复数动词连用）大多数人；

例句
There are many people who still find the act of abortion abhorrent.
仍有很多人对堕胎行为表示厌恶。

hints

n. 建议( hint的名词复数 )，细微的迹象，征兆；

例句
They've been giving broad hints about what to expect.
他们对将会出现什么情况已作了明白的暗示。

had

v. 有（ have的过去式和过去分词 ），（亲属关系中）接受，拿，买到；

例句
He claimed that his parents had abandoned him...
他声称父母遗弃了他。